A Constant Message

I’ve been rather curious about the recent dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guardian/guide.  To be more specific, I’ve been curious as to why my dragon guardian/guide has constantly been telling me that it is time to know who I am in the recent dreams that I’ve had about him.

The dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guardian/guide have tended to vary (but not too much) throughout the time that I’ve had them so far (which is almost six years and four months as of this writing).  However, since the middle of last June, all of the dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guardian/guide (except for a few) have consisted of him telling me that it is time to know who I am.

Did something happen that led to my dragon guardian/guide constantly telling me that it is time to know who I am in the recent dreams that I’ve had about him?  Is my dragon guardian/guide stressing that I should know who I am as soon as I can instead of waiting to know who I am?  Is my dragon guardian/guide implying that I should try to find out who I am?  I honestly don’t know, so it’s hard for me to say.

I will say that this message – that it is time to know who I am – is something that I don’t focus on or think about a lot, seeing as I have other things and more important things on my mind a lot.  In addition, while I have thought of writing a poem about this message since it is pretty deep to me and is a lot for me to take in, I’m not sure when or if I’m actually going to do it for the time being, seeing as I have other things that I want to write poems about first.

Whatever the reason behind my dragon guardian/guide constantly telling me that it is time to know who I am, I hope that the dreams of him telling me that it is time to know who I am won’t become dreams that I will stop having after a while and never have again.

What Some of My Dragon Dreams Have Led To

Even though I find the dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guardian/guide to be confusing, I nonetheless feel that there are a few interesting things that these dreams have led to.

These dreams have led to me wondering who I really am.  My dragon guardian/guide has sometimes claimed to know who I truly am, and while I’ve always taken that claim with a substantial grain of salt, I still have come to the realization that I just don’t know who I really am.

These dreams have led to me wondering what potential I really have.  My dragon guardian/guide has told me that I am more than what I have become, and while I’ve taken that with a substantial grain of salt, I still have yet to find out how – and in what ways – I am more than what I have become.

These dreams have led to me considering going on some kind of journey to try and find myself (though I’m not sure what kind of journey it would be at the moment).

These dreams have led to me questioning my spirituality.  In particular, the dreams where my dragon guardian/guide has told me why he was chosen to be my guardian (which is something that I refuse to reveal for personal reasons) have led me to question and somewhat reconsider my spirituality.  For the record, I haven’t been a spiritual person throughout my life so far.

These dreams have led to me writing two great poems last year (one of which I consider to be my magnum opus and feel I won’t be able to top in the future – and both of which I still will not be sharing at all).

So, I’m glad and thankful that I have these dreams despite the fact that I find them to be confusing (as strange as that may sound).

Curious About a Dragon in My Dreams

Lately, I’ve been thinking about the dreams that I’ve had about the red Western dragon that claims to be a friend of my dragon guide (which is something that my dragon guide has neither confirmed nor denied, even to this day).  I’ve also been thinking about the fact that this red dragon’s personality isn’t the same as my dragon guide’s personality.  This has led to me being curious about this red dragon and wondering why this red dragon appears in my dreams.

Most of the dreams that I’ve had about this red dragon have been trivial (well, trivial compared to some of the dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guide, anyways).  They tend to either consist of him telling my dragon guide something (such as telling my dragon guide that he has done a good job of being my guardian) or consist of him telling me something (such as telling me to listen to my dragon guide).

Though most of the dreams that I’ve had about this red dragon have been trivial, two of the dreams that I’ve had about him have stood out to me.

The first dream that I had about this red dragon that stood out to me was the second dream that I had about him.  In this dream, he told me that he wouldn’t eat me nor hurt me and that he would watch over me until my dragon guide (who he referred to by name) came.  Then, my dragon guide arrived and thanked the red dragon for watching over me.  He then told the red dragon that he may go and the red dragon flew away.  This dream stood out to me because it was the first dream where my dragon guide’s name was revealed to me (and I had it almost one year after I had my first dream about my dragon guide).

The second dream that I had about this red dragon that stood out to me was a dream where he told me that my dragon guide was chosen to be my guardian and asked me if I knew why.  I told him that I didn’t know why my dragon guide was chosen to be my guardian.  Then, I asked him what he meant about my dragon guide being chosen to be my guardian.  He responded by telling me that I might find out in time and that I would only wait until then.  This dream stood out to me because three-and-a-half years after I had this dream, I ended up having a dream where my dragon guide revealed why he was chosen to be my guardian.

However, in spite of these things, I still find myself wondering why this red dragon appears in my dreams.  Does he represent a voice of reason?  Does he give me advice that I should follow?  It’s honestly hard for me to say, considering that little has been revealed about him in the dreams that I’ve had about him so far.

Wondering About Knowing Who I Am

Last night, I had a dream where my dragon guide told me that it is time to know who I am.  This didn’t surprise me at all, seeing as the recent dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guide have more often than not consisted of my dragon guide telling me that it is time to know who I am.

However, this made me wonder about something that didn’t cross my mind before.  By telling me that it is time to know who I am, does my dragon guide mean that I should decide what I want to do in life and decide who I want to be in life, as opposed to not knowing exactly what I want to do in life and not knowing exactly who I want to be in life?  I don’t know at the moment, but I hope that I will find out the answer to this question in time.

A Not-So-Surprising Dragon Dream

First off, I’m sorry that I haven’t posted any entries in quite a while.  I’ve been rather busy with other things in life.

Anyways, this morning, I had a dragon dream that really didn’t surprise me.

In this dream, I was standing in a stone area.  My dragon guide was in front of me while a male centaur (who had long white hair, blue eyes, and the lower body of a white horse) was standing behind me.  My dragon guide put one of his talons underneath my chin and the centaur calmly put his hands on my shoulders.  My dragon guide and the centaur then told me to be thankful that they are my guardians.  Suddenly, out of nowhere, a red Western dragon appeared to my right.  I turned my head to the right as best as I could and looked at the red dragon.  The red dragon looked at me and told me to be thankful that he is a friend of my dragon guide.

What is it about this dragon dream that really didn’t surprise me?  It’s the fact that it consisted of me being told to be thankful for certain things, considering that today is Thanksgiving.

Now, you may be wondering who the male centaur and the red Western dragon that appeared in this dream are.  Well, I’ll explain that below.

The male centaur that appeared in this dream is another guide of mine that appears in my dreams.  Like my dragon guide, he started appearing in my dreams literally out of nowhere – and I had my first dream about him almost one year after I had my first dream about my dragon guide.  He always calls me by the name that my dragon guide always calls me by in my dreams and his personality is similar to my dragon guide’s personality (mainly in the sense that he’s trying to guide me towards finding who I am and knowing myself as well as I can like my dragon guide is).  He has appeared in some of the dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guide as well.  Up until now, I didn’t mention him in this blog at all because I felt that mentioning him in this blog would be trivial with regards to what this blog is about (and at the moment, I don’t know if I’m going to mention him on this blog again or not).

The red Western dragon that appeared in this dream is a male dragon that claims to be a friend of my dragon guide (which is something that my dragon guide has neither confirmed nor denied as of this writing).  He started appearing in my dreams literally out of nowhere (and a little while after I started having dreams about my dragon guide), but he hasn’t appeared in my dreams very often.  He always calls me by the name that my dragon guide always calls me by in my dreams, but his personality isn’t really like my dragon guide’s personality (in the sense that he’s not trying to guide me towards finding who I am and knowing myself as well as I can, anyways).

With that aside, am I thankful that my dragon guide and my centaur guide are my guardians?  Yes, but at the same time, it’s something that I have yet to fully understand.

Am I thankful that the red dragon is a friend of my dragon guide?  It’s honestly hard for me to say at the moment.

On a final note, happy Thanksgiving to those who are celebrating it!

A Somewhat Strange Dragon Dream

A while ago, I had a dragon dream that I thought was somewhat strange.

In this dream, I was on a cliff and a gold Western dragon was in front of me.  The dragon looked at me and then called me by the name that my dragon guide always calls me by in my dreams.

What is it about this dream that I find to be somewhat strange?  It’s the fact that a gold Western dragon that has never appeared in my dreams before called me by the name that my dragon guide always calls me by in my dreams.

Even though I think that this dream is somewhat strange, I think of it as just a dream and nothing more.  Maybe time will tell if I have another dream like this about this dragon or not.

Six Years

I find it hard to believe that today marks the six-year anniversary of me having dreams about my dragon guide; much time has passed since I had my first dream about my dragon guide.  So, I thought I’d make an entry about my reflections on it.

What have I learned in these six years of having dreams about my dragon guide?  I’ve learned that I’m still a wanderer in the journey of life.  There are things about me that I’m not sure if I know for sure or not – and there are things about me that I feel I still have yet to know and haven’t gotten close to beginning to know.  I’m still trying to find who I am with regards to several things – and without much knowledge or ideas of what those things really are.

What have I come to feel about my dragon guide in these six years of having dreams about him?  I’ve come to feel that he seems to be trying to guide me towards finding who I am and knowing myself as well as I can, while at the same time, he is wanting me to discover those things myself rather than rely on him to reveal those things.  I’ve also come to feel that he prefers to keep his cards close to his chest regarding what he tells me in the dreams that I have about him; he doesn’t tell me much at once and his answers to my questions only leave me with more questions.

Have my feelings about the dreams that I’ve had about my dragon guide changed over these six years?  Somewhat.  At the beginning, I felt that they were dreams that were good but confusing at the same time.  As I started having more of them over time, I came to feel that some of them (the ones where I’ve ridden my dragon guide in particular) were awesome.  I also came to feel that some of them were encouraging me to look at and question things that I didn’t really look at and question before (such as, but not limited to, who I really am).  Now, I feel that they’ve been good but confusing at the same time, awesome on occasion, and sometimes encouraging (with regards to self-discovery).

Have my feelings about having dreams about my dragon guide changed over these six years?  Somewhat.  At the beginning, I felt rather confused about the dreams that I had about my dragon guide.  Now, I feel thankful that I have dreams about my dragon guide, though I’m still confused about them.

So, those are pretty much my reflections on having dreams about my dragon guide for six years now.  What could the next year of having dreams about my dragon guide be like?  It’s hard to say, but I won’t be surprised if it’s more of what it already has been – and I won’t be surprised if there will be a few new things in it as well.

My Favorite Dragon Dreams

Out of all the dragon dreams that I’ve had so far – whether they’re dreams about my dragon guide, HTTYD-related dreams, a combination of both, or other dragon dreams – I’d have to say that my favorite ones are a tie between the ones where I was a dragon and the ones where I’ve ridden my dragon guide.

What is it about these dreams that makes them my favorite dragon dreams out of all the ones that I’ve had so far, you may wonder?  Simply put, it’s the glorious sensation of flight and the glorious sensation of being in the sky.

Dreams of Being a Dragon

When it comes to the dragon dreams that I’ve had so far, they are mainly dreams of talking to a dragon (be it my dragon guide or another dragon) and they are occasionally dreams such as (but not limited to) dreams of riding my dragon guide.  However, there’s one kind of dragon dream that I’ve had only twice:  the dream of being a dragon.

The two dreams that I had of being a dragon were not dreams that I had recently, though – they were dreams that I had a long time ago (long before I started having dreams about my dragon guide, I might add).  I don’t remember much about those dreams, but I do remember that I was a huge white Western dragon in one of them and I was a huge black Western dragon in the other one – and I remember that no one was riding on me in both of them.  Also, if my memory serves me correctly, I was flying above and between two cliffs in the dream where I was the black dragon.  While I think of those dreams as just dreams and nothing more, they were awesome dreams nonetheless.

I haven’t had any dreams of being a dragon since I had those dreams.  Looking back on it now, I wish that I could have those kinds of dreams again.  The closest thing that I have to those kinds of dreams now is having dreams of riding my dragon guide.

The First Dream

I thought that I’d share the first dream that I had about my dragon guide, which I had back in October 2009.

The dream started off with me sleeping on top of some kind of cliff while a huge green Western dragon was in front of me.  The dragon suddenly brought its head down to me and began to gently nuzzle me.  It continued to nuzzle me until I woke up.  Then, I woke up and sat up.  As soon as I sat up, the dragon gently put one of its talons underneath my chin and put another one of its talons to my lips.  The dragon looked at me and told me in a deep voice that it was alright – and then called me by a name that is not my given name.  After that, the dream was over.

How did I feel about this dream after it was over?  I felt glad that the dragon didn’t hurt me or kill me in it (not to mention that, looking back on it now, I feel glad that I didn’t fear the dragon), but I also felt rather confused.  Who was the dragon?  Why did the dragon call me by a name that is not my given name?  Still, I thought that it was just a dream and nothing more.  Little did I know at the time that it would be the start of something good and strange that has continued with me to this day.

Thankful and Confused (2)

As good as it may seem to be told the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams, I actually have somewhat mixed feelings about it.

On one hand, I’m thankful that I’ve been told some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams (and while I haven’t had a dream where I’ve thanked my dragon guide for telling me the messages that he has told me, the closest that I’ve come to that is that I had a dream where I thanked my dragon guide for his guidance).  On the other hand, most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about myself in particular – tend to leave me feeling confused.

Before I go any further, I’m going to go a little bit in depth about the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams.

Some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams are either about life in general or about myself (though they’re about myself more than they’re about life in general).  These messages tend to be tantamount to wisdom (e.g. the message that there are times when I should listen and times when I should not [listen]), advice out of the blue (e.g. the message that I need to look inside myself to find who I really am), or slight revelations (e.g. the message that there are things about me that I have yet to know).

Some of the other messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams have to do with him and me.  These messages tend to be tantamount to information (e.g. the message that my dragon guide will protect me when he can) or slight revelations (e.g. the message that my dragon guide knows what I have yet to know about myself).

There are messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams that are exceptions to the aforementioned kinds of messages, but they are few and far between.

Anyways, I’ve come to believe that most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about myself in particular – are being told because my dragon guide is trying to guide me towards finding myself, finding out who I am, knowing myself as well as I can, and realizing and fulfilling my true potential.  I also consider some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about life in general in particular – to be wise and deep.

In spite of that, most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about myself in particular – still tend to leave me feeling confused.  This is not because I tend to take these messages with a substantial grain of salt.  Rather, this is because these messages either leave me with questions or answer questions that I have while leaving me with more questions.

I have asked my dragon guide about some of the messages that he has told me, but it hasn’t really helped for the most part.  If I ask him about a message that he has told me (regardless of what it’s about), he more often than not responds by telling me that I will find it out in time (which has turned out to be true on a couple of occasions, but still).  Furthermore, whenever I ask him about a message about myself that he has told me, he always responds by telling me that I will find it out in time.

Even though most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams tend to leave me feeling confused – and I tend to take such messages with a substantial grain of salt – there have been occasions where I’ve found a message that he has told me in my dreams to be true (but over time, as opposed to doing so right away).  However, this is with regards to the messages about life in general that my dragon guide has told me more than it is with regards to the messages about myself that my dragon guide has told me.

So, while I am thankful that I’ve been told some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams, most of them – the messages about myself in particular – tend to leave me feeling confused.  Are the messages that leave me feeling confused messages about things that I will understand in time?  I can only hope so.

Thankful and Confused (1)

As good as it may seem to have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams, I actually have somewhat mixed feelings about it.

On one hand, I’m thankful that I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams (and I have, in fact, had a few dreams where I thanked my dragon guide for being there for me when he could).  On the other hand, I’m confused about it – specifically, I don’t really understand why I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams.

Now, I’ve come to believe that my dragon guide is trying to guide me towards finding myself, finding out more about who I am, knowing myself as well as I can, and realizing and fulfilling my true potential – especially with regards to some of the things about myself that he has told me in my dreams.  I’ve also had a dream where he told me that whatever I go through, he is here to guide me.

In addition, I’ve had a couple of dreams where my dragon guide told me that he is here to watch over me, not to mention that I’ve had a few dreams where he told me that he is my guardian and/or told me that he will protect me.  I’ve also had a few dreams where he has told me why he was chosen to be my guardian (but he hasn’t told me who or what chose him to be my guardian as of this writing).

However, in spite of those things, I’m still confused and I still don’t really understand why I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams.  This is not a result of me having the tendency to take the messages that my dragon guide tells me in my dreams with a substantial grain of salt.  Rather, this is a result of a curiosity about my dragon guide deep within me that lingers on – and that I can’t really find the words to describe or explain.  I will say that while I have thought a bit about those things, it hasn’t brought me closer to finding a reason why I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams.

When my dragon guide started appearing in my dreams, it was not sparked by anything involving dragons that I had come across or felt in my life up to that point, nor was it sparked by a conscious or subconscious desire to have dreams about a dragon (and I certainly didn’t have a conscious or subconscious desire to have dreams about a dragon for a few years).  It happened literally out of nowhere with just a few dreams that would become many dreams over the next few years – and with nothing that would become something over the next few years.

So, while I am thankful that I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams, I’m confused when it comes to the reason behind it.  Is it something that happened by chance and somehow stayed with me over the past few years?  Is it something that fate had a plan for and was meant to happen – and meant to be?  It’s hard for me to say.

Knowing Who I Have Become

A while ago, I had a dream about my dragon guide that I didn’t appear in (which is a first) where my dragon guide implied that it is time to know who I am because I do not know who I have become.

Needless to say, what my dragon guide said in that dream (even though I’ve taken it with a substantial grain of salt) has led me to ponder and wonder about who I am – and who I have become – a little bit.

Do I really know who I have become?  I do feel that I know who I have become, but only to a certain extent; I consider the things about me that have stayed with me throughout the years to be parts of who I have become, but I feel that they don’t make up everything regarding who I have become.  At the same time, I feel that who I have become up to this point in my life may change in the future; I know that who I have become has changed over time, as I’m not the same person that I was five years ago.  Furthermore, I feel that I’m still becoming who I am – and I feel that there are some things about who I have become (if not who I am becoming) that I have yet to discover.

Does this mean that it is time to know who I am?  It’s honestly hard for me to say with certainty, let alone know.  I feel that knowing who I am is a journey that I am still on and that I am not even close to finishing yet.

What exactly is my dragon guide referring to with regards to who I have become?  Is he referring to who I have become in terms of my personal identity?  Is he referring to who I have become spiritually?  Is he referring to who I have become in terms of my potential?  It’s hard for me to say, let alone have any idea, at the moment.  I can only hope that what my dragon guide is referring to with regards to who I have become is something that will be revealed in time.