Sunday, July 26, 2015

The First Dream

I thought that I’d share the first dream that I had about my dragon guide, which I had back in October 2009.

The dream started off with me sleeping on top of some kind of cliff while a huge green Western dragon was in front of me.  The dragon suddenly brought its head down to me and began to gently nuzzle me.  It continued to nuzzle me until I woke up.  Then, I woke up and sat up.  As soon as I sat up, the dragon gently put one of its talons underneath my chin and put another one of its talons to my lips.  The dragon looked at me and told me in a deep voice that it was alright – and then called me by a name that is not my given name.  After that, the dream was over.

How did I feel about this dream after it was over?  I felt glad that the dragon didn’t hurt me or kill me in it (not to mention that, looking back on it now, I feel glad that I didn’t fear the dragon), but I also felt rather confused.  Who was the dragon?  Why did the dragon call me by a name that is not my given name?  Still, I thought that it was just a dream and nothing more.  Little did I know at the time that it would be the start of something good and strange that has continued with me to this day.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Thankful and Confused (2)

As good as it may seem to be told the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams, I actually have somewhat mixed feelings about it.

On one hand, I’m thankful that I’ve been told some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams (and while I haven’t had a dream where I’ve thanked my dragon guide for telling me the messages that he has told me, the closest that I’ve come to that is that I had a dream where I thanked my dragon guide for his guidance).  On the other hand, most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about myself in particular – tend to leave me feeling confused.

Before I go any further, I’m going to go a little bit in depth about the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams.

Some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams are either about life in general or about myself (though they’re about myself more than they’re about life in general).  These messages tend to be tantamount to wisdom (e.g. the message that there are times when I should listen and times when I should not [listen]), advice out of the blue (e.g. the message that I need to look inside myself to find who I really am), or slight revelations (e.g. the message that there are things about me that I have yet to know).

Some of the other messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams have to do with him and me.  These messages tend to be tantamount to information (e.g. the message that my dragon guide will protect me when he can) or slight revelations (e.g. the message that my dragon guide knows what I have yet to know about myself).

There are messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams that are exceptions to the aforementioned kinds of messages, but they are few and far between.

Anyways, I’ve come to believe that most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about myself in particular – are being told because my dragon guide is trying to guide me towards finding myself, finding out who I am, knowing myself as well as I can, and realizing and fulfilling my true potential.  I also consider some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about life in general in particular – to be wise and deep.

In spite of that, most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams – the messages about myself in particular – still tend to leave me feeling confused.  This is not because I tend to take these messages with a substantial grain of salt.  Rather, this is because these messages either leave me with questions or answer questions that I have while leaving me with more questions.

I have asked my dragon guide about some of the messages that he has told me, but it hasn’t really helped for the most part.  If I ask him about a message that he has told me (regardless of what it’s about), he more often than not responds by telling me that I will find it out in time (which has turned out to be true on a couple of occasions, but still).  Furthermore, whenever I ask him about a message about myself that he has told me, he always responds by telling me that I will find it out in time.

Even though most of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams tend to leave me feeling confused – and I tend to take such messages with a substantial grain of salt – there have been occasions where I’ve found a message that he has told me in my dreams to be true (but over time, as opposed to doing so right away).  However, this is with regards to the messages about life in general that my dragon guide has told me more than it is with regards to the messages about myself that my dragon guide has told me.

So, while I am thankful that I’ve been told some of the messages that my dragon guide has told me in my dreams, most of them – the messages about myself in particular – tend to leave me feeling confused.  Are the messages that leave me feeling confused messages about things that I will understand in time?  I can only hope so.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Thankful and Confused (1)

As good as it may seem to have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams, I actually have somewhat mixed feelings about it.

On one hand, I’m thankful that I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams (and I have, in fact, had a few dreams where I thanked my dragon guide for being there for me when he could).  On the other hand, I’m confused about it – specifically, I don’t really understand why I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams.

Now, I’ve come to believe that my dragon guide is trying to guide me towards finding myself, finding out more about who I am, knowing myself as well as I can, and realizing and fulfilling my true potential – especially with regards to some of the things about myself that he has told me in my dreams.  I’ve also had a dream where he told me that whatever I go through, he is here to guide me.

In addition, I’ve had a couple of dreams where my dragon guide told me that he is here to watch over me, not to mention that I’ve had a few dreams where he told me that he is my guardian and/or told me that he will protect me.  I’ve also had a few dreams where he has told me why he was chosen to be my guardian (but he hasn’t told me who or what chose him to be my guardian as of this writing).

However, in spite of those things, I’m still confused and I still don’t really understand why I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams.  This is not a result of me having the tendency to take the messages that my dragon guide tells me in my dreams with a substantial grain of salt.  Rather, this is a result of a curiosity about my dragon guide deep within me that lingers on – and that I can’t really find the words to describe or explain.  I will say that while I have thought a bit about those things, it hasn’t brought me closer to finding a reason why I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams.

When my dragon guide started appearing in my dreams, it was not sparked by anything involving dragons that I had come across or felt in my life up to that point, nor was it sparked by a conscious or subconscious desire to have dreams about a dragon (and I certainly didn’t have a conscious or subconscious desire to have dreams about a dragon for a few years).  It happened literally out of nowhere with just a few dreams that would become many dreams over the next few years – and with nothing that would become something over the next few years.

So, while I am thankful that I have a dragon guide that appears in my dreams, I’m confused when it comes to the reason behind it.  Is it something that happened by chance and somehow stayed with me over the past few years?  Is it something that fate had a plan for and was meant to happen – and meant to be?  It’s hard for me to say.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

A "Dragon Guide" Label

I recently created a “Dragon Guide” label for the blog and then went through my older entries and marked them with this new category.  This way, if you’re interested in reading the blog entries about my dragon guide, you won’t have to browse through the whole blog to read them – you can click on the dragon guide link on the right sidebar on the blog and you’ll get to browse through them.  I also did this in case I post an entry that’s about my dragon guide but not about the dreams of mine that he has appeared in (though it’s a given that most of the entries about my dragon guide will also be about the dreams of mine that he has appeared in).

Sorry if this entry is a little boring.  I plan on posting a few new entries about my dragon guide and/or my dragon dreams.  However, I’m not sure when I’ll post a new entry about How to Train Your Dragon at the moment.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Knowing Who I Have Become

A while ago, I had a dream about my dragon guide that I didn’t appear in (which is a first) where my dragon guide implied that it is time to know who I am because I do not know who I have become.

Needless to say, what my dragon guide said in that dream (even though I’ve taken it with a substantial grain of salt) has led me to ponder and wonder about who I am – and who I have become – a little bit.

Do I really know who I have become?  I do feel that I know who I have become, but only to a certain extent; I consider the things about me that have stayed with me throughout the years to be parts of who I have become, but I feel that they don’t make up everything regarding who I have become.  At the same time, I feel that who I have become up to this point in my life may change in the future; I know that who I have become has changed over time, as I’m not the same person that I was five years ago.  Furthermore, I feel that I’m still becoming who I am – and I feel that there are some things about who I have become (if not who I am becoming) that I have yet to discover.

Does this mean that it is time to know who I am?  It’s honestly hard for me to say with certainty, let alone know.  I feel that knowing who I am is a journey that I am still on and that I am not even close to finishing yet.

What exactly is my dragon guide referring to with regards to who I have become?  Is he referring to who I have become in terms of my personal identity?  Is he referring to who I have become spiritually?  Is he referring to who I have become in terms of my potential?  It’s hard for me to say, let alone have any idea, at the moment.  I can only hope that what my dragon guide is referring to with regards to who I have become is something that will be revealed in time.